only if i blow away...

: lovely_nattie; October 26th, 2009

all that you fashion
all that you make
all that you build
all that you break
all that you measure
all that you feel
all this you can't leave behind

<3

just live your life.

: lovely_nattie; April 29th, 2009

wow. i haven't updated this thing in a while.
currently, i am sitting in the library at school waiting for 11:00 am to roll along so that i can go to humanities. i just finished my math final...don't know how that went. i thought it was pretty easy, but usually when i think that i fail. so i'm just crossing my fingers i passed!
since i last updated life has been pretty crazy. i feel like everyone around me is growing up so fast. i still feel like i'm 16. i don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing. do i have my life under control or not? either way, considering everything that is going on, i can honestly say this is the happiest and the most content i have felt in years.
i love that i'm branching out and meeting new people, aside from my usual group of friends (who i love too!) it's nice. it sounds stupid, but i've been in need of more good friends for a long time. i think this is just what i needed.
last night i hung out with jenna, alyssa, and hinal. lately i've been spending more time with them. it's nice because i realized that just because we have grown into our own personalities since we graduated high school, doesn't mean we can't spend time together. i always complained about how different we were, but i think that it works.
we went to hinal's temple around 2, but it was closed and so we didn't get to see inside, but i loved the exterior! it was so cool. then we went to jenna's house and we all helped hinal cook an indian dinner! i swear, it was such a fun time. i learned more about hinal in those couple hours, than i have in all the years i've known her. we need to do something like that again.
these upcoming weeks are going to be so busy for me. which i like, because there is nothing worse than being stagnant.
today is my last day of this semester and i couldn't be happier to get it over with. tomorrow i'm going with alyssa and nia to dance it up with steve aoki. i haven't gone dancing at a club in a long time, so it's going to be awesome. friday night jenna is throwing her annual dinner party and a sleepover. then saturday the veronicas are coming to the house of blues! i'm determined to become their best friend. haha!
next week, on thursday, i'm heading over to tampa to see kings of leon with danielle at the sundome. i'm so excited for that show. last time i saw them they were amazing. they are definitely one of my top 5 favorite bands.
and next weekend i'm going to eyecon with victoria. it's a twilight convention and jackson rathbone is going to be there!!! along with his band! so victoria and i are going to stalk the florida hotel for him. we are throwing out good vibes into the universe, so we are totally going to hang out with him ;)
last month i bought jonas brothers tickets and got floor seats! row 9! it has got to be the best concert seat i have ever gotten! i'm going by myself and even though i feel kinda weird about it, i'm still so excited! i hope i'm at least sitting near someone close to my age or else i'm going to feel like a pedo.
i went to my therapist a couple weeks ago because i've been starting to notice (especially in the last 2 years) that i find it extremely difficult for me to focus. i can't concentrate on anything. in school i'm always daydreaming and doodling, which i thought was just me being me. and when i'm having a conversation with someone, i can never focus on what the person is saying and i consistently drift off into la la land. so, my doctor made me take this really long test and after an hour of asking me tons of questions, she concluded that i have ADD. yes. i'm 20 years old and i just now got diagnosed with ADD. so now i'm taking adderall, which works wonders! i take it and within 15 minutes i am able to sit down and literally finish pages of homework without losing my focus. it's awesome! plus i'm thinking it elevates my mood, because when i'm on it i'm the most cheery person.
the only downfall is that when it starts to wear off (i'm on a low dosage, so it wears off in about 5 to 6 hours) i am left feeling like a zombie. but i guess it's something i can deal with. i only take it for school because focusing in class is the hardest thing for me to do.
hopefully adderall will help me with my summer school math class i'm taking. i hate that i'll be taking math over the summer, while the rest of my friends are off partying and relaxing at the beach. but i just want to get it out of the way. eh, it's only for four weeks. i can do it!
so...life is good. hopefully it will stay like this for a while.

upcoming shows and events!

: lovely_nattie; January 25th, 2009

whether i'm going to all of these is uncertain since my schoolwork is pretty demanding this semester, but i really want to try.

february 16th: escape the fate @ firestone
february 26th: this providence & sing it loud @ backbooth
february 27th: the jonas brothers experience 3-D
march 2nd: the take action tour w/ CIWWAF, meg & dia, breathe carolina @ house of blues
march 7th: tokyo police club @ the social
march 12th: craig owens @ the social
march 18th: taste of chaos w/ bring me the horizon @ hard rock
march 28th: the ting tings @ the social
march 29th: butch walker @ the social
april 6th: lady gaga, the white tie affair & chester french @ house of blues
april 16th: bamboozle roadshow w/ forever the sickest kids, the cab & we the kings @ house of blues
april 18th: the ap tour w/ 3OH!3 @ house of blues

Tags: shows

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

: lovely_nattie; December 25th, 2008

take a tip from my mom and have some fun! just don't let your dog bite you in the leg. LOL.

j'adore dior

: lovely_nattie; December 17th, 2008

i love the new Miss Dior Chérie commercial! sofia coppola makes everything she touches seem like a dream. i want to live in paris RIGHT NOW.

love is the answer to a question that i've forgotten.

: lovely_nattie; December 3rd, 2008

fuck everyone that is happy and in love. just, fuck you.
i'm so unlucky when it comes to love and relationships. i wish i could just not care about it, but it's difficult when everyone from my circle of friends, to my co-workers, to family members, to strangers on the street are all happy in love. so fuck you. just know that i feel like the loneliest person on the planet right now.

/end of pointless rant.

bit bit.

: lovely_nattie; October 29th, 2008

i dressed up as britney spears for some halloween parties. people kept staring at me and didn't offer me any drinks. i think they thought i was really pregnant. people are so stupid.

random rambling

: lovely_nattie; October 13th, 2008

i realized today that i never really finished up my california trip entries. ah, well. i'm horrible with writing blogs everyday. i could never write in my diary everyday when i was younger, and even if something eventful does happen, i normally don't go running to my blog to write it.
but anyway. i loved california! i want to move out there as soon as i finish school here. out-of-state tuition is just too expensive for me to go to school in los angeles. :(
i ended up going back to hollywood blvd and taking pictures with the hand and foot prints. i also went sightseeing for celebrity houses. i don't have any of the pictures on my computer because i'm super lazy and don't feel like uploading them, but hopefully i'll have the rest up this weekend on my facebook.
speaking of facebook, i hate it! it's super confusing with all it's applications and such. i only use it to put up pictures and to send flair. yeah, i kinda love flair.
i took my american history mid-term today and 75% of what was on the test was NOT on the review. so i'm pretty pissed off about that, because i studied that review like crazy.
halloween is coming soon and i'm still confused on what i should be. my options are: hannah montana, betty boop, or garth from wayne's world. hahaha, currently i'm leaning towards garth.
i went to the NERD show on thursday and it was an AMAZING show. the best show of 2008, so far! i went by myself, which doesn't really bother me except for when weird dudes feel the need to keep me company. i thought the opening band was called "the perverts" because that's what the lead singer introduced the band as, but the next day i found out that it was chester french! they are super good! the lead singer came out after the show and was not-so-quietly discussing my breast size with a guy. it was really uncomfortable. he also thought i had a "fine ass". he kept smiling over at me while i kept pretending to be really interested in my phone...it was disgusting.
during the NERD set, pharrell and the other guys started calling up girls to the stage and pharrell pointed at me. i, of course, was completely in denial that he pointed at me so i hesitantly went "me?" and he was like "yeah you! with the curly hair" being that i was the only girl in my section, since i normally stand to the side, i went ballistic and started freaking out. i ran up to the security gate and told the security guard "pharrell called me up on stage, can i go through?" and the stupid security guy said NO! he. said. no. i repeated again "but pharrell called me up there!" and the security guard's excuse was that there were "too many girls on stage already" but even while saying this he still continued to let other girls (who were wearing little bits of clothing) pass me. it was completely unfair. just because i wasn't drunk and my underwear wasn't showing, i couldn't get up on stage! i was so upset, i even started to cry. it's not like an opportunity to dance with pharrell williams on stage happens every day! i ended up leaving the show before common went on because i was so pissed off. :|
errrr. but i still had lots of fun at that show.
this week has been busy busy busy! tomorrow i have to wake up early and go to the bank to deal with a stolen credit card situation! it's a long story, just know it sucks. wednesday is the underoath, saosin, and the devil wears prada show at house of blues! and i'm going to a ghost walk with jenna on saturday. OH! and i have to set up a meeting with my school counselor to get my credits in order and start getting ready to transfer to a state university. i'm stressing out!!!!

god save the queen.

: lovely_nattie; September 26th, 2008

today we went to long beach to tour the queen mary ship. my brother was really interested in seeing it because of the history and the fact that the ship is also haunted. i didn't know much about the ship, so at first i wasn't really interested. but when we arrived there i completely changed my mind. the ship has been stationed there since the 1970s, no longer runs, and is a hotel now.

we bought some tour tickets that included a self-guided tour, which means you basically roam around the ship by yourself, a ghost walk tour, and a ghost tour with "special effects". we got super lost roaming the ship by ourselves, but it was really cool. the ship looks a lot like titanic and it's because it's was made by the same company, white star. so while walking the promenade i felt like rose and jack should pop out somewhere.

the ghost tours were...interesting. the first one we went on took us below the ship where the boiler room was. it was super creepy. all the boilers are removed but it's dark and there are tons of stairs and railings. they told the story about how the queen mary was used during WWII and held tons of soldiers and that many died on the ship. ghost from the soldiers, past guests, and captains still haunt the ship. i didn't see any ghosts, but it was still creepy. my favorite part of the tour was when we were taken to the old, abandoned swimming pool. the lady told us the pool has been drained for decades but for some reason there is always puddles of water at the bottom of the pool. i don't know if this was part of the show or not but while i was walking around the pool area, which by the way is very badly lit, i felt like someone splashed me in the back with some water. but there was no one there. for my own sanity, i'm going to say it was part of the show :|

the view around the ship was amazing. long beach is really pretty and it reminds me a lot of south beach. another interesting tidbit about the queen mary is that the jonas brothers shot the video S.O.S. on the boat. i didn't realize it until i got there and thought the boat looked quite familiar.

and of course i had to do a commemoration to joe jonas and his limp wrist dance while on the deck!

as well as a commemoration to the infamous titanic scene.

they wouldn't let people up on the end of the ship, so i couldn't do the scene justice. so i had to do the abridged version. :)
i had a pretty awesome day, which ended with a trip to in and out burger! there isn't a lot of selection but the burgers are really good! they should have some in and outs in florida! i don't know what we are going to be doing tomorrow. hopefully go to santa monica pier or maybe back to sunset!

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: lovely_nattie; September 25th, 2008

i have been in los angeles for only two days and i love it. i love the city and homes and everything. the driving is crazy, but i adore southern california. it's been forever since i've been in a place with mountains and hills and i love the feeling of driving down a hill. going up, not so much, my ears get plugged. my favorite place here is sunset blvd! there are so many stores and restaurants, i'm going crazy! and i have made up my mind that i am going to live in laurel canyon. it's so beautiful. so, as you can see, my trip is going pretty well so far. the only downside is that i'm with family and it's annoying. i can't do what i want! i really just want to go out and explore and get lost. but it's hard to do that when my mom is nagging at me and my brother is picking on my direction skills. i haven't gotten to vintage shop or even SHOP. but i'm loving all the cute little landmarks.
today i went to hollywood. i visited chateau marmont, which was a letdown. i expected this grand hotel, but it's really hidden and not that special. but i guess it's the stories that come along with the hotel that make it so. we also visited the beverly hills hotel, looked at all the expensive houses, saw the FRESH PRINCE HOUSE and i freaked out. we went to the really touristy places, the chinese theater and the sidewalk of stars. and i must say, that part of town isn't very impressive. it smells really bad and there are homeless people everywhere! one of them even took it upon himself to hand wash some of the stars. i couldn't even fit my hands in the cement because they are having a movie premiere later tonight (some new movie with dennis quaid) and everything is blocked off and covered in red carpet. i'll have to go back later to see if my hands fit with anyone.
we went up this residential area to go take pictures of the hollywood sign. it was pretty surreal to see this famous landmark right in front of me. i felt like i was at universal studios taking pictures of a prop. i wanted to take a hike up to the very top to see the view of the city, but i wasn't dressed in hiking clothes and my mom and brother weren't interested. :(
tomorrow we are probably headed for long beach to see the queen mary ship. i'm not really interested in see that! but i have no choice. later on my to-do list is malibu, venice beach, and i want to explore more of santa monica. oh, and i really want to go vintage shopping. and maybe see a celebrity? maybe.